If you can dream it, you can do it.

— Walt Disney

Well…here it goes. This is my way of getting all of my thoughts and feelings out there. If they are out of my head, maybe they will be more real. I can have more accountability for them, more accountability to myself. This particular journey is 8 weeks in the making. But my entire weight loss journey is really a 16 year one.

I love being a mom. It was really all I ever really wanted to be. I was naive in the thought I would have my daughter and it would be a piece of cake to get my body back. Fat chance! I was told the weight would easily come off when I breastfed. I was not that lucky. None of the 30 pounds I gained came off. I quickly became pregnant again with my son without losing any on the weight from my previous pregnancy. It was the exact same situation with the 25 pounds I gained with my second pregnancy.

I never had to think about my weight before I had children. When I really should have addressed my weight I was consumed with two children that were less than 2 years apart all while working full time. I would start a diet and become so overwhelmed with the process. How could I focus on time to meal plan and exercise? I would become overwhelmed and stop. I also experience a back injury that resulted in a spinal fusion about ten years ago. I have essentially feared exercise because I do not want to have to go through the grueling recovery again. These thought distortions have plagued my 16 year journey.

I had another moment where I was fed up eight weeks ago. I joined a program called Noom. I have decided I not only want to lose weight but I want to move more and I want to be healthy. I want to keep up with my children. I want to keep up with my active husband. I want to conquer my fears and thought distortions.

In one of my Noom articles today, it talked about getting your goals on paper and telling people your goals. The more you get your goals out into the world, the more likely you are to achieve them. I always wanted to blog. Once I get writing, I do enjoy it. So here I am. My goals will be out in the world. I have weight to lose. I have exercise to do. I am just going to get it all out there…