Getting there is hard!

So…I joined a gym. Again! I wanted to. Anyone who really knows me knows this is not normal. Well, in reality, the idea of it is normal. The idea of it is not bad. The action of doing it is what is not normal. Talking myself into going is so hard. What I am really realizing is that when I go and workout, I see more progress on the scale and I feel so much better. So how do I find the time?

Finding balance has always been hard for me. I always seem to put myself last. I always take on too much. Then, I get overwhelmed and things go by the wayside. My fear is that my weight loss will go by the wayside. Why? Because it is hard and so much work. And so much time needs to go into it. I am so afraid that future me will throw in the towel like I always do.

Here is the good news though. I have been on this journey nine weeks. Nine whole weeks! That is so much longer than I normally commit to myself. What is different? I have taken it one step at a time. Each week I have built upon what I have accomplished the week before. Adding the gym is the next step. I have learned to be more mindful with food. Now I want to be more mindful with exercise. How do I feel going in? How do I feel while doing it? And how do I feel when I leave?

How am I going to find the time? I am going to sit down today and schedule it in. I am also going schedule it with Paul. My goal is to get there four days this week. I can do it. It is going to make a world of difference in helping me reach my goals. I can do this and it is going to be fabulous!